THE POWER OF LOVE

It was when the day u walked off to catch the bus, then only i realized.. it was the power of Love...that has changed & hit me...

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I was riding on bike chasing after u, just to deliver the fried rice that i have made 4u before u leave... I was cycling fast to trace ur track, but u were no where to be seen... my muscle was aching, working on the pedals.. den only i realize i was too late. U were already gone...

It was just a temporary depart but somehow i felt that i miss u... alot...

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Many times i got annoyed by u.. but most times when i gone haywire and upset, u were there cheering for me, so sensitive of my needs for support. It was when that time u invited me into the room that morning, u have changed my perceptions towards u... & i felt bad n thankful @d same time, to have u around. I learned alot from your life...

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When there were times i wanna yelled out loud, cried out & grief over this wounded soul after a battlefield... i learned to accept the past & reality. I chose to make a difference this time... i chose to say sorry...

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When there were too much time that i cried over this fear within me, to approach, to love... I was in distress with all the challenges...& I finally overcome it. And the power of prayers & praise+worship all glories to God~ I learn to lay down, accept, be opened, & to love... once again
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It all started.....when i realize all these....that i was crying over a little incident.... when i was chasing after you... just to past you the little lunch box that i have kept 4u

WHAT HAPPENED...

"Why do u look so guilty?" questioned he.

I said "har? erp..."
im speechless..

Can't believe it happened i just can't believe it happened...

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Have u ever been in a situation that u do not know what to do? How to do? Why me why him why it happens? WHY~~! Not knowing what to do is the most darn thing. You try 2help but u just don't know how..

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The skid of the car, the quick reverse, the whining and the loud noise of cracking bones is still fresh in my mind.. i was crouching on d road panicking..my lips kept repeating why it happens why it happens..reluctant to believe that it's not a dream...


.... I am guilty because at times i thought i am a jinx. I am guilty coz IF i did not come back home such incident could be avoided. I am guilty coz i should have immediately call her to come back home, din realize accident will just happen within split seconds...That was just the 1st night i step into home.. I can't find fault on the damn driver for driving fast thus blaming on my dog for being "blind" on d road... damn it i was so frustrated... y am i oways d emotional1... I just couldn't imagine if i was to limp on 1 leg in my life, i have 2restart all over again, if i am a person who likes to jog & run, such accident will just "end" my soul...


...The pain in her eyes, the helpless look on her face when she was trying so hard to stand up or move but to no avail, the shaking of her body & panting non-stop says it all...it really breaks my heart.. Setting alarms every 1-2 hours from d couch to check on her @wee hours...The days that she was gone, i called her name but no reply then only i realized that she's away.. Now that she has back from surgery, complications.. she has to learn to walk on 3 limbs now.. there won't b any jumping & shouting of "JOGGING!! JOGGING HALLIE!!"..can't do that anymore.. How i wish dis raya holidays being extended, at least i can spend more time with her & take k of her... But i know that i need 2get back Johor...d things that i promised,i can't compromise, & i know my purpose during dis 2weeks raya holidays... Really on struggle what to do now...n pls don't tell me that she is just a dog... u can walk away from my face now if u intend 2do that.