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I'm ready to leave 2010

Each time i left home with a rush & many times i depart with tears in the bus...soaking over certain hurts, self-condemnation & madness... This time when i was in the bus going back Johor, i cried not because of the above, but of such feeling that has never exist... I never thought i could miss some1 so badly....


I really enjoyed every minutes every seconds that i had in Seri Kembangan, in KL this holiday. Before i went back home, i told God I wanna learn to stand in the gap in this holiday for my family & how challenges just arrive on my doorstep when i first reach home, & that's how i learn to do something that exceeds my capability in knowledge, skills, & physical strength. & through out all these, i discovered & developed new abilities too.... How i live on the grace of God~~ Asking for wisdom & strength each day to deal with everyday events. 1 thing i do not really understand is that, why twice i went back home, twice i experienced food poisoning whilst i ate the same food as others did...I felt like a pregnant lady this holiday...being nauseous all the time.. & i thank God that i had recovered now.


I shall say that this holiday is truly like a training mission for me, learning to overcome things on my own when there's no1 4me to turn to... & I cherish the beautiful friendship that i have never imagine it would be so wonderfully made. & i shall say, i never regret going back home~

Happy New Year dear folks :)

My Thanksgiving to YOU 2

It was a wonderful retreat that we had for the last 2days @Gunung Lambak there. I never regret coming all the way back to Johor just to spend time with u all, & have a moment of quietness in the remote. Though I miss out the thanksgiving lifegroup night, my mind still in thanksgiving through out the journey back to KL.

To the house of NISSI, dear bro :

Sunny

Hi Sunny, I’m glad to have the chance to serve with u in lifegroup. That’s how I get to know u more when we paired together in praise & worship. I used to stay my distance away from u coz many times I wrongly sensed the aura of “im not approachable” from u hehe. The truth is, hey~ u r really a warmy brother. U always cook for us, & 4those who haven’t eat their b/fast, lunch or dinner. & I like ur cooking2~ U r really funny & the way u rub ur tummy is double funny hehe~ I learned a lot from u bro, u taught us a lot of things be it during lifegroup, church sermons or even during hangout. TQ for being so strong when u are in not-ok-times, that u hold on to God & His Vision, standing up again fighting as an overcomer. Don’t be discouraged in every circumstances, for u are truly not alone in all these. Jia you brother! U r more den conqueror! All ur labour will not go in vain!


Jingzu

Hey Zu, Tq 4ur life & dedicating urself 2serve faithfully. Sometimes u reminded me of my Aunty Van when I was schooling. When the van comes, all the kids so excited to go unto the van & off to school or back to home. Hehe.. Many times, during long/short journey u will still be the driver even though u may gone tru a hard day. I remembered how u used to be in the past, comparing now, u always learn & have a teachable heart. U r learning to be a good brother, a gentleman. After sort of “rebuke”/being taught in the church, I see ur efforts in being protective haha.. U always fetch Bel & sis after night classes as u do not wish to see them walking alone in the dark back to Rapha. And when u reach Rapha, u will always ensure till we step on the white tiles & close the door b4 u leave, ensuring our safety. Ur mouth is round & u really talk a lot, u always made me laugh from ur jokes. How u have laid down for the Kingdom of God shall never go in vain bro, u’ll see His glory reign! +U bro! In ur ministry, in life, spiritually, & studies! Continue to be a shining star for God whenever u are!


Joshua

Hey Joshua, tq 4ur life~ 4laying down for God, & 2b willingly being the clay to be moulded by Him. I like to listen 2ur sharing & ur testimonials encouraged me a lot. U are a thoughtful person who think of others & very懂事的一个人. Tq 4always being ever ready to serve. U are very幽默, u always make the atmosphere fills with laughter & alive. We seldom really chat or hangout together & I do not really have the chance to taste ur cooking. Hope that we have a greater breakthrough in our relationship bro!


Sze Hou

Hou kor Hou kor! My companion in eating haha just kid..Tq 4everything bro~ Many times when we were hanging around & u spotted me so quietly, u’ll just approached me 2b the listener. If u r shy, u’ll just SMS me hoping 2cheer me up / encouraged me. Thx a lot bro. U r generous in giving hands to ur bros sis & people. Ur life encouraged me a lot bro. How u came 2know Christ really funny, but that shows the simple+pure faith of urs & love 2wards God, really inspires me. U do not care what the surrounding people think of u, but u’ll just do it for God. U move ahead despite certain fears in u, u just put faith in Him, trusting that God lead u the way. May God continue 2mould u 2b a blessing whenever u go, & let His glory show forth! Tq 4ur life Sze Hou~


Alix

Hey there Alix bro, im not sure if I should tag u… but I like2 express my Thank You 2u Alix.. Little time did we spent 2gtr, but ur life truly encouraged me a lot. There were times be it outside the exam hall, or the morning prayer pondok, there were worries in the corner of ur eyes, but u just put faith in God. Cute on the outer appearance, came all the away from Ranau Sabah, but ur passion 4Christ is so great that God open ways & helped those who help themselves. & u were like Joshua son of Nun, leading the team. U just live by the grace of God~ When we were sharing together, sometimes I do not understand what u shared but many times u lead me to think of another perspective. U always started with “boleh nampak lah..” so funny, u stimulate my mind. Let this pair of eyes see the future God has 4u & let these anointed eyes of urs fix on Him, 4God cares 4u+carries ur burden. U were really a romantic guitarist too, any1 told u that hehe? whenever I was in Nissi, the play of ur guitar & the fingers on the strings always caught my heart haha… I always got distracted to ur play~ U really play very well Alix, don’t let the sound of praise & that talented fingers stop. Let the beat fills the air, & let ur passion burns once again~ God knows ur heartbeat, & He loves u2, so are His people~ There is always hope~


Khang Yinn

Hey bro, tq 4ur life. I’m really glad how God arranged a divine meeting 4me 2bump in2 u on my 1st day lost in UTHM, & now we r bros sis in Christ. U r truly a special person that I met & u r really like a father. Ur love 2wards God, His church & ur uni lifegroup truly touched me. U will always have time for ur people when u see their needs & encourage those who are struggling. U will always share what u have to the surrounding people. If u really notice that the person next 2u is eating only rice+egg, or bread without water etc, u’ll share ur drinks & take the meat+vege from ur plate to that person’s. U have been a sensitive brother. U r generous in giving to ur people & be ever ready to serve, help & teach. I never seen such a patient young man in my life b4. I remember that time u were teaching me to drive & all sorts of “wonderful exciting adventures” happened yet ur voice is still so calm, patient, caring..encouraging me not to give up. Many times ur life & testimonials inspire me. I learned a lot from u KY, be it knowledge, hands on skills or spiritually. See~ told u, u r really like a dad. Ur cooking is really nice. Many times I see that when u r being stretched so far, yet u chose to put God’s Kingdom 1st. U take up challenge to lead by the grace of God & how God open ways for those who believe in Him. I thank God for the chance that we can serve together. May the Lord honour the anointed one & use u greatly for His Kingdom comes! All ur efforts will never go in vain! God bless u abundantly bro!

My Thanksgiving to YOU

It was a wonderful retreat that we had for the last 2days @Gunung Lambak there. I never regret coming all the way back to Johor just to spend time with u all & have a moment of quietness in the remote. Though I miss out the thanksgiving lifegroup night, my mind still in thanksgiving through out the journey back to KL.

To the house of RAPHA, dear :


Li Fong

Tablemate! I do not know y but I like to hug u, u r like my pillow, so huggable ^^ Dear sis, im very much encouraged by ur courage for Christ sake though many times u r in timid times. How God had changed & moulded u 2become His people so bold that His glory is reflected. Though many times there r fears in u, but u took the step of faith & courage to take up the challenges. The desire in u for God has win over all the obstacles in ur life, praise God~ u r more than conqueror! U have always been my encouragement sis. And.. I wanna be ur barnabas too~ Whenever im not ok, u can sense my aura is different. Ur presence beside me is already a comfort & strength 2me. Somehow i still felt that most times our relationship is only restricted to physical/surface level, seldom more than that. & i hope there is a breakthrough in this area. I thank God for this relationship li fong. Let this relationship continue to grow! I love u sista! *hugz*


Pui Ying

Dear sis, even we have been housemates under the same roof twice yet we never really chat/hangout. And it must be God’s great plan 4us 2have once again being placed in Rapha house as sisters in Christ this time! Ur pure & simple faith to God is truly a sweet spirit that u have. Despite all the complexity from the people towards u out there, u fix ur eyes on God instead. How u r willing to lay down urself & 2be changed by God, ur efforts will not be wasted. In Rapha, u always cook yummies for us, & it’s really YUMMY!! Whoever falls sick, u will make some herbs & drinks 4us. Sometimes u may be the silencer but u truly play the role of a supporter, giving strength 2us. Whenever we have chance to share, ur testimonial always help me @my current situation when I needed that encouragement so much. U know sis, I really thank God for this Retreat that we just came back from, because I truly get to know u more.



Do u see this picture, it may not be the best shot/angles, but I see the beauty of this picture. Because I see unity, passion & love. Limitation of physical strength may be 1 of ur greatest challenge, talk about climbing the steep Mount Lambak & ur fear of heights, but the passion & determination spirit within u has overcome all things impossible. Dear sis, nothing can separate u away from the love of God & nothing could stop the unity in this family of God. Tq 4ur life sis, tq 4ur perseverance, tq 4ur transparency, trust, hope, faith & love~


Qian Ying

Hey dear sister, i1 2tq 4ur life in dedicating urself 4God's vision, in serving Him faithfully. How God Himself reviewed to u that made u changed a new. Many times ur sharing & testimonials truly miraculous & amazingly wonderful how God blessed u when u honour Him & that He honours u back in life, studies etc. U have a pure heart for God & I learned a lot from ur life sis. In Rapha, u r the most disciplined1 in ur time arrangement. U always keep a thankful heart doesn’t matter what circumstances u face, u fix ur eyes on the Lord & trust fully in Him. Ur burden to the souls out there, ur never ceasing prayers & ur efforts made in harvesting fruits will never go in vain! God sees it all & He knows ur heart desires & needs, & the Lord will be ur best provider! I tq 4always being my “backstage” supporter. I remembered there was once my cooking has gone so teruk that im afraid the lifegroup people will not want to taste it & u told me “don’t worry lily, I will eat ur meal! It still looks nice 2me”. When I was down & in distress, u always try to put a smile on my face, u always do ur little cute cartoon jiayou-action 2encourage me. Tq 4ur prayers2 sis. U always like to D.I.Y. on paper arts as a gift to encourage the people around u. U r truly a blessing, a sensitive sister & a good supporter in Rapha. Tq 4everything sis!


Hei Ling

Hey there Hei Ling, previously we did not really have some moments to really know 1another, until this semester, & I thank God for such chances. There were certain similarities between us that I find it interesting, & it seems like u are going tru/ gone tru the same thing that I had went tru b4. U really r an adorable & humorous sister that is playful & bold. U always bring liveliness to the whole atmosphere. In the midst of all struggles & challenges, many tears shed, @d end of the day u chose to walk in God’s will, & laid down ur many aspects of ur life, 4His Kingdom. I wanna assure u that ur efforts will not go in vain. Be thankful in every circumstances, knowing that the Lord is ur God of Jireh. Let the Joy of the Lord be ur strength! May our relationship continue to grow~ Tq 4ur life sis!


Bel

Hey dear my jinglebel~ It’s awesome 2hav met u tru English debate, den we were in Sife 2gtr & how great it is now dat we r serving the Lord 2gtr! A lot of sweet memories wif u, but this sem I felt dat I have neglected/somehow paid less attention 2u. Many times I wish 2jump onto the bed & join li fong u all rolling around, cubit-cubit 1another, watch drama/movie 2gtr with u….but I end up most of the time sitting in front of my lappie… I really enjoyed Bel. I enjoyed walking 2gtr wif u back to Rapha, I enjoyed being chased by u on the bicyle while I jog & chase u back, I enjoyed fetching u with u at the back of the bicycle screaming all the way back to Rapha trying to balance ourselves on the wheels… U always my guliguligu Bel Bel. Ok, u may officially call me “my lily” now, I can accept already tee hee hee… Bel, I wanna encourage u no matter what, never give up half way, doesn’t matter how hard dis route could be, u’ll never be alone. & u Fight Till The Very End! U r more den conqueror Bel! Over emotions, over physical tiredness, over deception... Don’t let ur past draw u back~ 2gtr we run for God! *hug hug kiss kiss*


Kasmah

Dear Kak Kam, u have a pleasant character that I always see the joy of the Lord in u. I cherish ur smile & it is sweet~ I like to listen to ur voice of prayers, as I find it so gentle~ How u made efforts in learning English through Youtube really encourages me. U r willing to start from zero, & kasmah, I believe 1day u can be a Hero & master good English too! If there is a will, there is surely a way. Jia you sis! We can chat in English whenever u want ya! I never really see u in downcast/angry mood b4. Ur desire+passion to Christ is so pure ur love to God has flow out from u reaching the surrounding people. Through out the Retreat, how u guided Pui Ying on each step so faithfully loyally carefully really touched me. Ur life encouraged me, many areas I can learn from u. U are a good mountain walker too haha.. I thank God for this relationship. God knows ur heart desire & He will open ways for those who desire Him. Hope to c u in UTHM sis~ May the Lord bless u Kasmah! May our relationship continue to grow, I wanna know u more~


Rozinah

Hey dear Kak Rozie Rozie~ u always so cute la~ U bring lively atmosphere & smiles around to the places that u walk through. Seldom did we have talks 2gtr, mainly just an outer playfully conversation with u. Hope 2know u more sis! Kak Roz, wanna encourage u whenever u face challenges, do not be discouraged or felt unable, as u r never fighting alone! God is with u sis! So does this family of God. Let there be a breakthrough in our relationship! Jia you in everything sis, in life, ministry, spiritually, & ur studies too. Love~


Peniel

Truly1 2TQ 4everything shepherd. Since the day u pick me up like the starfish on the shore, my life has been greatly influenced by u. TQ 4never giving me up all these while sis. U always helped me to see many bigger pictures in my life, I learned a lot from u. And many times u were there supporting & backing up for me when I fail/fall. In Uni1, there’s only u & me, & we have already made up a good team. I did not ask for anything but u already knew my heart desire & needs. U always stand in the gap when I need help though I did not voice out. U are very sensitive sis. U r faithful in discipling me, ensuring im ok & on the right track. Ur commitments in the Vision, all ur efforts shall never go in vain! U are not only our big sister in the house, but truly a mom to all of us in Rapha. Each night, we will stay up late 2gtr with Rapha sisters to study. & whoever accidentally fell asleep or woke up late after the alarm sounds, u will tried ur very best to wake us up by drawing on our feet, tickling us, made us laugh till we are awake. We know we have commitments in our ministry yet u play the role 2help take care of our studies, ensuring we did not overslept & missed out doing our homeworks. I’m so glad 2have met u sis! U have set an example for us 2follow~ U gave us strength & encouragement whenever we are discouraged. No matter how busy u are, u still have time for us, ensuring the peace & unity in the house of God. I love to hear u sing & play the guitar in the house, when there is ur presence in the house, there is warmth. I like the way u care for every souls out there, & willing to be stretched & maximized for God’s Kingdom & glories to come. Dear sis Peniel, my 1 Thank U is not enough 2express my gratitude 2u, but having d honour to walk with u in Christ & be ur comrade in this Vision is the best gift ever! TQ 4giving ur life to the Lord! God honours u my dearest shepherd!

The Sound of Praise

When i was having my meal dis early noon, i paused & stop doing everything. I just freeze right there. A little voice has caught my ears... & it was the child next door singing praise~ & i just look at my mom sitting next to me, & i said Hallelujah~ She smiled~

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You know we always or perhaps used to hum a song, do our daily things, but we never knew the meaning of it. Sometimes being naive is good~ Because we do not know a lot of things, there isn't much of exposure to the worldly views, no complexity, no racism/attitude of despising brained wash in us, there is only pure heart for friendships, pure mind for an act of honesty.


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When we are naive, we build good friendship doesn't matter what skin colour we are



When we are naive, we do not know so much about rich & poverty. But we still live in joy whilst we are poor



Even the missing tooth & freckles face will not put the picture into flaws, when these kids know nothing about the perspective of beauty from the world viewed.



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Even in black & white picture, the smiles of the angelic faces have given the picture a perfect touch of colours when these kids know nothing about worries.

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The next door toddler was raising her voice so loud in joy singing "Soraklah Hallelujah, Soraklah Hallelujah...." & none of her family are believers. She may be young & not knowing the meaning of the lyrics, but she is singing praise to God. Hallelujah she sing~ she is praising God~~


“Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these."
-Luke 18:16-



Let the sound of praise never cease & spread across the land

Reflection in the rear mirror

Little chance did we hangout or talk to each other in the past... but somehow that little chance had became somewhat of opportunities these few days...

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We used to walk pass each other like strangers... little conversation did we had... until i had a real glance of your eyes... This pair of eyes somewhat looked familiar...as if i had seen you before in the past... & i would say that you have such beautiful eyes that shine.


The more i have the chance to be with you, i began to know you. Your eyes~ they reminded me of my childhood crush. I was young, & he was the little boy in the class, yet the eldest. We never talked to each other much, but there's much of eye contacts. His picture in my head may b blurry, but his gaze & stare i shall never forget... & now~ You reminded me of him...

I saw your eyes from the reflection in the car rear mirror... & i know that i should guard my heart... I don't wish to fall unto another confusion again...

THE POWER OF LOVE

It was when the day u walked off to catch the bus, then only i realized.. it was the power of Love...that has changed & hit me...

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I was riding on bike chasing after u, just to deliver the fried rice that i have made 4u before u leave... I was cycling fast to trace ur track, but u were no where to be seen... my muscle was aching, working on the pedals.. den only i realize i was too late. U were already gone...

It was just a temporary depart but somehow i felt that i miss u... alot...

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Many times i got annoyed by u.. but most times when i gone haywire and upset, u were there cheering for me, so sensitive of my needs for support. It was when that time u invited me into the room that morning, u have changed my perceptions towards u... & i felt bad n thankful @d same time, to have u around. I learned alot from your life...

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When there were times i wanna yelled out loud, cried out & grief over this wounded soul after a battlefield... i learned to accept the past & reality. I chose to make a difference this time... i chose to say sorry...

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When there were too much time that i cried over this fear within me, to approach, to love... I was in distress with all the challenges...& I finally overcome it. And the power of prayers & praise+worship all glories to God~ I learn to lay down, accept, be opened, & to love... once again
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It all started.....when i realize all these....that i was crying over a little incident.... when i was chasing after you... just to past you the little lunch box that i have kept 4u