Surviving Through the Niagara Fall

When i did not sleep for days, when i got tired, i realized hey.. i am a workaholic just like him..

A tits n bits of my life updates here~

Man~ this month is just a hell lot of assignments & test that's making me crazy alright!

To be frank, i have a body just like a smoker does...

When that day, i realized my heartbeat is abnormally slow, my chest was suppressed, i was trying to grasp for air, i had a picture that my life is not going to exceed 70 years old. The other day when i bump into my neighbour Kjune all dressed up for a workout, she asked me hey why not for a jog? I just laugh out loud in my heart. That is just so not me turning away from exercise. And that hit me, pondering in my mind.. my body is no difference from a smoker, except that i don't have nicotine & toxic as much as them. Replaced with caffeine perhaps?

There were many times i adopt alternate sleep in my life. I can just be infront of my laptop for more than 15 hours, stayed whole night all day awake until the next morning straight to class then come back again and open my laptop again for assignments, paper works etc. I have short breaks like go wash my clothes, toilet break, FB break etc.. And the next day after class, activities & shower i can just straight away sleep for 10 hours replacing back my lost-sleep the day before. So this cycle kept repeating itself. I pant alot when i climb the stairs, i easily got tired when my body is in wrong sitting position. I realized i am a bad living testimonial~ I really thank all the people who constantly remind me to eat, sleep n take care. I'm... learning to take care of myself.

I miss the times when i woke up early in the dawns to jog in TARC hostel. And i know im not too late to start rebuild my body as temple of the holy spirit, & to start my jogging life again.

You know folks~

i've decided to learn back mandarin. I remembered there was 1 time i went to a clothing store asking for a "三角裤"(underwear) that puzzled that worker lady which was very obvious it doesn't sold there. I was actually looking for 七分裤 (3 quarter pants). I was mistaken 3 quarter pants as 三角裤 because of the "3". I remembered many great times my friends & I had a great laugh & fun over my mistakes in mandarin. But also, at the same time I remembered it was a chinese teacher that despise my mandarin in class that had led me into hating & rejecting chinese language so much. Many people even thought i was a "banana"(non chinese-ed). Well not anymore folks, because im going back to learning mandarin!!

So far, life is getting more exciting & challenging now!! I had certain minor breakthroughs in life but i'm preparing for the greater ones & learning to survive through the Niagara Fall!! O hail The Days!! Rise me up!

Good day folks~ Peace

MADness in this "Huat" CNY

Who has gained weight during this Chinese New Year raise up ur hand!!!

Oh boy~ this year CNY is truly amazingly different & HOT!

Hey folks, how is your CNY craze been like?! did u injured ur muscle from stretching your hands too often to receive angpau? Gain/lost in gambling? How's the reunion with friends & family? Saved any yummy food for me? ^^ what about those who did not celebrate CNY, went to any open house for mahjong session, non-stop eat chat etc.?

With all the fireworks, visitation, food, red angpaus, "yee sang", gathering....what a "HUAT" CNY!!! (Huat=prosper in Hokkien)

Geez.. all these MADness of Making A Difference in this CNY.. How's my CNY week been like? Well...i would say it's indeed a special one this year. I did not really celebrated CNY but i did manage to visit my relatives & grandpa to have some reunion. You know~ it's all about being initiative in this CNY. The thing is, it is only during CNY that relatives, friends & family gather together and it is a good time to mend & build relationships together.

When we all gather together it's a norm for us to do our own stuff, eat our thing or just hang around with people we are comfortable with say our parents, or little children that we used to play with. Sometimes when you never know what a conversation you'll indulge in when u just take a little courage to speak out and have sharing together~

Wow~ what a CNY this year~! I've been doing something i don't usually do & never did before. Such a different week! hopes & expectations somehow just reviewed to me at the very last minute. God is just so real...

I gained another confidence in this CNY, at the same time.. i've realized another thing as well...A broken relationship..... There was gap, there was heat..there was ignorance.. there was silence... Is it i have changed that made u all feel uncomfortable? Or is it just that u don't like..... Hard time but hell ya~ i'm still holding on His promises. This just requires patience.. and be still

That morning, i took a stroll at the park with my dog for some fresh air. What a quiet morning. The unusual of cars parked bumper-to-bumper along the road, most probably all city slickers and country man came back for CNY. I saw a pair of mid-aged couple had their morning walk. I saw teenagers wearing all new going out for visitation. I saw a man at the park n i said "morning". How u made some1's day brightened up just a simple greeting in the park, has made my day shine too...though i do not that man in my neighbourhood. Sitting on that bench to have my thoughts, eventhough things doesn't turn out fine in this CNY, but i'm feeling grateful enough for all the surprises,unexpectations & hope reviewed to me when i prayed for 2nd chance.. I've done things that i never done before in this CNY,& it took me hell lot of courage.. "Huat" on the outside, but i'm feeling "huat" in the inside. When i looked back the week, how i experience this divine greatness..i'm just thankful.. & it just echoed in my head.... "u n b e l i e v a b l e"