Waiting Upon

It was truly a wonderful semester that i had gone through, the 1st 2nd quarter of this year. Flashing back the days of sorrow, excitement, shame, stress, and not forgetting the sweet hours i had at nights, and days too. I learn to fix my eyes on the Lord, I learn to trust in Him more, I learn to find rest in Lord Jesus. Frankly speaking, if i do not have God in my life, that down times period, i really do not know where i can find strength to go for more miles, that will last. I thank God to have my brothers and sisters to watch over me, i feel so blessed to be in this family of God.

In this semester, i made mistakes during the holidays, in which it slap me hard on the face when i realize i had lost the vision. I climb up once again, i learn to catch up, i learn from my mistakes. I did mistakes again when i did not trust God enough & end up a broken spirit, a broken soul. I submitted my sorrow & sickness unto His Hands. Im trading my worries with the Joy of the Lord, recognizing that He is my Lord my God. I thank Him for moulding me. With all the things that happen in this past semester, i received the most is learning to be still, & wait upon the Lord. The Lord is my shepherd, He watches over me.

I grateful for God-sent people in my lives. My heart rejoice when seeing them experiencing the grace of God. Yet, seeing the person that i love being hurt, really breaks my heart. I learn to submit into Him either, that He will take care of him, as he go through the roaring seas. I made mistakes during the holidays, i do not want to repeat it again. Knowing that the Lord has His right time, for us, for me, for everyone.

I'm a lady in wait, for that 1 fine day.

Im waiting upon~

I'm ready to leave 2010

Each time i left home with a rush & many times i depart with tears in the bus...soaking over certain hurts, self-condemnation & madness... This time when i was in the bus going back Johor, i cried not because of the above, but of such feeling that has never exist... I never thought i could miss some1 so badly....

I really enjoyed every minutes every seconds that i had in Seri Kembangan, in KL this holiday. Before i went back home, i told God I wanna learn to stand in the gap in this holiday for my family & how challenges just arrive on my doorstep when i first reach home, & that's how i learn to do something that exceeds my capability in knowledge, skills, & physical strength. & through out all these, i discovered & developed new abilities too.... How i live on the grace of God~~ Asking for wisdom & strength each day to deal with everyday events. 1 thing i do not really understand is that, why twice i went back home, twice i experienced food poisoning whilst i ate the same food as others did...I felt like a pregnant lady this holiday...being nauseous all the time.. & i thank God that i had recovered now.


I shall say that this holiday is truly like a training mission for me, learning to overcome things on my own when there's no1 4me to turn to... & I cherish the beautiful friendship that i have never imagine it would be so wonderfully made. & i shall say, i never regret going back home~

Happy New Year dear folks :)