When I Just About To Give Up..

Have u ever felt..

When u r just about to give up upon life or certain things..

There is a sudden sparkle appears from no where & added into ur life..

And perhaps it has changes your life or aims since then..

Hmm.. I've been struggling to make a decision lately. Trying to ignore certain responsibilities recently.. i've just came back from a 3D2N Bible Conference in Johor Bahru. I was so reluctant to attend this conference at first, packing my belongings & wash up at the very last 25mins after a long consideration on whether to skip. Darn it~

Many times i wonder why it is just so hard to become a believer.. I know many doesn't feel this way but i do..

On the 2nd night, can't believe i would dozed off & fell asleep during the night prayer. I was so tired and the next thing i knew was i crashed onto the floor knocking down the chairs in front of me & scared the people around.. I quickly got up & stand back into praying standing position & close my eyes trying to cover up so that the pastor in front did not realize anything. It was so embarassing.. Worse i've let my juniors saw my graceful act.. Haiz~

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When i was just about to give up upon christianity life..

A newborn has created. My junior bro had accepted christ. Ahh~

When i was just about to give up upon christianity faith..

There's a sudden restoration of hope within me..

Good thing this conference still able to restore the 10% faith within me. Eventhough it's just a small percentage, but i do believe this 10% will grow~ For i will keep my promise as to the covenant I've made..

Losing Grip

Talk about hanging on the edge.. u can't move a step forward nor backward. U r tired, ur muscles are aching.. Any mistake u make u'll just risk ur life. Face it, u r stuck!

In a situation like this.. what would u do? Cry out for God's help? Wishing someone would just pass by and give a hand? (might take years) Or u just shut ur teary eyes and flash back all the memories of your love ones and say "I'm sorry".. slowly letting go of your hands..

I'm that kind of person who will just leave... without saying goodbye..

I will cry, I will miss the moments we had, I will have regrets, but I will never forgive myself..

If i ever grab hold of your hand so tightly, it means that i appreciate u..

Don't ever let go of my grip..

if im holding u tight

I wish i could be like U

Hey I think i've seen u before!

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It's funny to see familiar faces on the internet. I just Googled my name on the internet & hey look what i've found. It's incredible how we can able to access to a person's details easily via the internet with the advance of cyber technology today. I've typed my friends' name too & hey i've found ya :p It's funny to see my dad's name appear2 with his N years graduate photo LOL! so cute! haha~ cute daddy ^_^

I've been browsing through friends' profiles, friends' friends' profile too. I like to trespass err i mean visit stranger's blog too. One is to extend my social network, second is that i actually admire them. Not admire admire that kind, it's what they have scribbled down their thoughts, their lives shared through the photos & blog posts that i admire. I see how people live their lives at overseas, how they are leading a fruitful success career life, how they enjoy their life as exciting as the roller coaster.. I envy these lives~

I've just found my old pal's pics & info through Google. Wow.. it's been ages i'v not in touch with him. It's really...that feeling of yearning for a success when i saw the pictures & description about him..as a leader. A leader in the troop~ wow.. I just can't believe.. we used to hangout in the past and what a big difference now & then when time changes people. I've to call his name follow by a Sir infront as a respect for the different level between us now.

Have u ever..

browse through people's profile & see how success their lives are

& u say

"Hey~ how i wish i could be like u"

A fresh start with yogurt

Starting your day fresh with yogurt as breakfast or simply just treat it as a light healthy snack will just do good for you. Here are the simple ways in preparing yogurt-based a.k.a. Lassi drink at home. Try it~

1) First get some soft fruits like dragonfruit, mango, strawberries, blueberries or kiwi etc etc. Here i pick dragonfruit, mango fruit & blueberry jam for the yogurt flavour.

2) Cut the dragonfruit & mango into cubes.

3)Place the yogurt and mango into a blender bowl to be blended until it is finely mixed.

4) Add sugar syrup to lessen the sour taste of the yogurt. No specific measurement as everything is up to the portion size of the lassi made. (Roughly: 1/2 mango, 1/2 glass of fresh yogurt & 2 tbs syrup to make 1 glass of Mango Lassi)

5) Pour the fine mango lassi into a glass.

6) Repeat step 3, 4 & 5 replaced with dragonfruit.

7) You can add fruit cubes on top of the lassi as dressing.

WALA~ Fresh Dragonfruit Lassi!

~ Mango Lassi ~

~ Blueberry Jam Lassi ~

P/S: RM14 1.5kg Sunglo Fresh Yogurt (plain) is used here => much cheaper if u compared buying 11units of 135g Nestle yogurt products.

Yogurt a nutritionally enriched food in protein, calcium, riboflavin, vitamin B6 & B12 is definitely good for your daily diet. It aids digestion & weight loss too. I say why not have a try!

Success is Sweeter When The Odds Are Against U

Many times we are not sure when we will reach the top..

It could be next morning.. it could be another season..

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Have u ever wonder..

"Success is Sweeter When all the odds are against you.."

when all hardworks are paid off when u reach the peak..

"It" that attracted me @the 1st place

Have u ever experience the adrenaline pump when u watch a movie/TV series? I bet we all do that all the time.. but today it was different..

I hardly watch any TV programmes/news when i was in Johore. Every updates i'll just refer to the source of the internet. Today i just watched "Prototype This" in Discovery channel. It was awesome to see people with that passion & the spirit of never giving up in inventing prototypes, products for the future. Watching Discovery does inspire me. Recalling how science attracted me at the very first place, my curiousity for everything.. When i was little, the 1st comic book that inspired me-Thomas Edison's.

I went to my room and searched back the memories that i had. "Lily's Memory Box" is where i kept all the things that i treasured ever since im a kid.

I still kept all the T-Gang "tuan chan" & CS stuffs.. miss it..

I would say im a very different person from others, starting from kid i was of a different species. I don't play barbie, I don't really make up, I don't play computer games (i just started to only play fb games this year), I don't watch anime etc etc..

These were the games that i played when i was young.

The microscope is a gift from my birthday. I remembered.. Whenever i used to go for outdoor activities with family, i would pack my bag with the specimen tubes, binoculars, compass & penknife inside. I would collect speciments from the river, pond, fungus or anything that attracted me so that i can view it through the lenses of the scope. I even think it's cool for someone to own a Swiss penknife which cost higher.

I recalled the days when i was a passionate scout following my dad to here and there. Learned to cross little river with a bamboo which had me end up with a swollen butt. Enjoyed setting up the tent and digging soil to make drain for our campsite. I cherish all the moments in the past where i used to have that strong passion for science and scouting. I just felt kinda wasted that, that passion could not sustain until the very end. How i regretted giving up my studies and goals instead..

Simply just watching this Discovery channel, it just made me want to go back to the one i used to be--> passionate.

Another Morning Like This

A daily morning wake up call for me with a sprang from the bed followed by "sh*t! im late!"

It's been ages since my last stop to admire the moon. I miss the moment where i used to view the sun rising from the east. I miss the smell of the refreshing morning mist. I miss the times where i used to have my "rewind in slow motion" instead of "fastforward".

3-4 hours sleep a day it's a very common thing for me. Worse~ my sleep cycle has affected resulting insomnia for me. Hmm~ talk about my commitments & presenting my very best in everything. I wonder how those people with "kiasu" spirit survive..TIME is always my main issue. I even rejoice when i felt asick so that i have excuses to skip meetings, classes & have my own space again at home.

I have lose my focus in studies these days n i wanted so much to catch up back. Wishing to avoid & reject certain responsibilities but it just made me feel more guilty,irresponsible & immature. These might just lead me into more excuses.. What i see from other people's lives, they can reach the top n why shouldn't i. So timid & lacking of faith from me~

I remember i used to write about my fantasy in the past, the lives of the people & the morning of my hometown in my friendster blog. And now? ...

My seniors' graduation day just over & it just made me realize that time is running real fast. And i believe if im willing enough.. im able to create my cherishable memories & leave my foot prints behind in making a difference in my university. I want to see me walking out this uni with my head held high and say "hey, i did it.." Success is my word & i shall see me bearing fruits! I just need that passion, thats all~

What The Flu (WTF)

WTF! Flu is everywhere! I wonder why people these days still take H1N1 lightly. I just went for a workshop in Sunway n i was surprise that no one even cared to 1st wash their hands before going for meals. We were in an air cond room which meant closed ventilation. There were people coughing and we had hand shakes!
When i reach home last friday the 1st thing my dad told me to do was wash my hands. Ok,my dad was carrying out his responsibility to protect the family n i respect that. Whenever i had contacts with sick people or door knobs, i came back home and have a shower straight away. I wash my hands n cup frequently. It's d responsibility towards d public that im saying!
Refering to Malaysia's 4th death recorded of victim Nur Syazwana,her dad thought it was just a normal flu. People,we should really be paranoid so to prepare us to be alert on any flu liked symptons!
Let's hope that we won't be in the quarantine list. Posting my blog in Transnational bus,going back Johor now. Fingers crossed 4me