My birthday My Akward Day

B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.~

how much do u value one's.. or perhaps your own birthday?

Kids want Daniel Radcliffe or Zac Efron to be at their Sweet16 birthday bash.

Reaching age 21, you want a golden key as your birthday gift.
In future, you want your hun to sweep you off to Hawaii for 1 month's honeymoon vacation 4ur bday...............

So~ how much do u value your own birthday? What are the "must-haves" in a birthday celebration~ Is there any rules stating that cake & present are the main element? It's not the rules that say so but perhaps the culture says so~

Some says the more gifts you received from your birthday, the more popular you are among your circle of friends. Some disagree but when it comes to the number of blessings you received, it means how popular you are among your groups of friends.

You know, i do wonder how important is a birthday~ People from all over the countries celebrate birthday every year in remembrance of the day that he was borned. Compare celebration for yearly birth & success, which one weigh more in terms of worthiness? Celebration in remembrance of all the hard work that you have gone through, the feeling of satisfaction after a success is indeed a true celebration!

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I am that kind of person who doesn't know how to response towards a compliment.

I am also that kind of person who will easily feel akward when it comes to my birthday.

Learning to accept compliments & gifts with a grateful thanks, i would like to thank all friends who have helped me celebrate my birthday, who have presented me gifts, who have presented me the lovely card & those who have blessed me so much in SMS, emails, fb msgs, songs & calls. The bag is awesome, the cakes are nice, the dress is femininely nice, n the card is super awesome.... i love them all.

As simple as just a msg, your every words every blessings to me is already my greatest gifts. I treasure every efforts made in writing & typing out that extra words to encourage me in life. Best regards from me to all of you. Cheers~

Is Beauty A Power??

Have u ever use your charm before? You know.. when u want something so much that you are using your attractiveness to get that one thing or perhaps more~

In this context, beauty here refers to the gratifying feature of your physical appearance.

So~ Is Beauty A Power??

Say

Whenever u r in a pub or simply just an open-air restaurant, n ask for a lighter. Have u ever experience the different treatment when

a) somebody just throw over the lighter 2u, comparing to

b) passing the lighter gently 2u with a charming smile? Perhaps showing off his cute dimple?
Well these are the effects when u show your charm to the opposite sex and showing none at all.

Say

When u can't finish your assignment or a given task by ur boss, n u just show your charming cutie look to a male colleague of yours who admires u, (n perhaps with your most sexy or loveliest outfit on), trying to pursue him into helping you to get your work done. And what do u know? He says yes why not~

When u want something so much..

Say

U r a big fan of Black Eyed Peas (B.E.P.) & u r dying to meet them @Sunway Lagoon Malaysia. Too bad u r in a tight budget this month but hey u suddenly thought of a friend who is working in Lagoon as a pool boy. Bingo! A free ticket entry to see B.E.P.! Hah! so u try ur very best & charm to flaunt & flirt with him, trying to coax him into helping u. And hey~ u enjoyed the concert very much at the end.

Even kids know how to use their charms as well... when they wanna get their toys, barbies, sweets etc..

People says beauty is beneficial~ If u r beautiful u can get whatever u want most of the time.

Is it true folks? Eventhough i would say that 80% of the people will fall into a beauty's hand by his/her charm or attractiveness, i personally don't agree much with this statement.

So..

What do u say?

Is Beauty A Power?

When it comes to EUTHANASIA, it is always a sensitive topic...

I woke up late again this morning... was suppose to finish up my works before dawn.. hazz~~
Feeling dreadful in this beautiful morning, with the weather so cool n fine, i'm feeling the grieve inside me.. I forced myself to get dressed to prepare myself to campus, i was trying to keep my cool not to break down anytime...

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How far do u agree towards Euthanasia (mercy killing) ?

It is always a hot debate between those who oppose & agree. Debating is one thing, but what if euthanasia has to be happen on your side? Would u still go towards saying YES??

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Since you walk away from home that day... u came back with a sickness..

In & out u went to clinics... In & out the pills through your mouth..

Staying inside the cage under observation waiting for familiar faces to visit u..

U wag your tail hard & started to eat again when u see dad & mom..

I'm sorry I'm sorry & I'm sorry

For not able to be with you when you are dying slowly inside..

I'm sorry coz i ignored u when u bark @me to look at the leash..
I'm sorry i just walk away when u sit beside me..

I'm sorry i care less of your sickness when i was busy finishing my report last holiday..

I'm sorry Hallie...

Can I.. see u again when i go back home this Raya holidays????

A question i've been wondering...

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Balancing between medical financial burden & losing u... I really do not know what to do.... so frustrated right now~~ it seems like there are lots of crazy decisions to make these days.... It's enough to kill me if i made the wrong move.. I won't die.. but it would be killing me softly inside.. with regrets & self-condemns...

I just hope that my prayers are answered.. I would appreciate if people pray 4my dog too. Her name is Hallie.

young & energetic when u were a puppy

happy as u are

until u have fallen asick..

U are not just a dog. but u r my companion & a good listener.

I wonder what it is like when u are away..

At home... it will just left four family members..

It won't be the same again without any barking noise..

annoying as it is...but i'll miss your bark.. now & always

we are (& always be) best friends until the end

i just don wish to put u to sleep

~ I Love U~

The cuts on my hands ; The wounds in my soul

Rat Race~

Chasing for the deadline.. Chasing for endless time..

No matter if you are a student or an employee climbing for the corporate ladder, recalling the busiest moments you got there..how many times u wished to seat your butt down & have a glass of refreshing drinks at your own personal time? to enjoy a handful of popcorn while laughing uncontrollably at the sitcoms on TV/ movie on cinema screen? to really enjoy stroll passing Voir, Vincci or Nichii during the month of sales in hope for an eye-catching outfit~~

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The cuts on my hands... i din realize it until i felt the pain when washing my clothes..

The growling noise as if there were 5 dogs barking inside my tummy... ten i realize i've miss a meal again..

The eye bags that you discovered when u really look into the mirror..

The time when i can't get up in the morning.. then i realize hey im really tired~

Have u ever have a time like this before? whereby u r feeling glad that finally u r able to have time to sit tight at home & have your favourite to-dos~

I know i will~

Who says life is always bed of roses?

It never does but hey.. happiness is in one's hands. Take a break for awhile & i say pick up your sensor skills to be alert of the surrounding spices of your life~ Let the colours & music of life throng you~~

You have left me a suicide note..

While i was listening to Suicide Note by Disagree while doing revision at the same time, somehow i just got distracted by the lyrics in this song.. Suicide Note..

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**I was stunned by what i've found from your bag.. You have left me a suicide note.. The depressing words on the yellowish old piece of paper.. it took me quite some time to analyse the chinese written handwritings.. I doubt it was few years back.. when u scribbled your suicidal intentions on that paper..**

You have left me a suicide note.. but it was meant to be sent to your brother.You were describing how hard life was that you can't bear the burden & craziness anymore.. for it was torturing you so badly..

You have left me a suicide note.. in which i wonder why it was still kept in your bag.. I dare not throw the paper away as i was afraid that you'll found out that i have went through your belongings.. It just made me treasure you more when i know that you are still in our midst today..

Eventhough it happened few years back.. Flashing back the horrific moment when i discovered that note by incident... Listening to this song just made me feel somehow.. insecure.. It is already a norm for me to have dreams & flashes each day.. It is always a fantasy when you wander into the virtual world but it is always a melancholy moment when you flash back the memories which you would never wanted to have..

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"I just hope that you'll know your girl can't afford to lose you.. Please don't just leave me.. without saying goodbye.." ****

Whispering to your ear..

"I treasure you mom"