You have left me a suicide note..

While i was listening to Suicide Note by Disagree while doing revision at the same time, somehow i just got distracted by the lyrics in this song.. Suicide Note..

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**I was stunned by what i've found from your bag.. You have left me a suicide note.. The depressing words on the yellowish old piece of paper.. it took me quite some time to analyse the chinese written handwritings.. I doubt it was few years back.. when u scribbled your suicidal intentions on that paper..**

You have left me a suicide note.. but it was meant to be sent to your brother.You were describing how hard life was that you can't bear the burden & craziness anymore.. for it was torturing you so badly..

You have left me a suicide note.. in which i wonder why it was still kept in your bag.. I dare not throw the paper away as i was afraid that you'll found out that i have went through your belongings.. It just made me treasure you more when i know that you are still in our midst today..

Eventhough it happened few years back.. Flashing back the horrific moment when i discovered that note by incident... Listening to this song just made me feel somehow.. insecure.. It is already a norm for me to have dreams & flashes each day.. It is always a fantasy when you wander into the virtual world but it is always a melancholy moment when you flash back the memories which you would never wanted to have..

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"I just hope that you'll know your girl can't afford to lose you.. Please don't just leave me.. without saying goodbye.." ****

Whispering to your ear..

"I treasure you mom"