It is just not fair...because i'm unworthy of it...

"...Thank you...Thank you so much....Thank you so so much O Lord......I'm in deep greatfulness.....You gave me hope again..."

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There were many occasions i thought back the times when i was being looked down in the past....i have burried all the grieve & hatred within me, & it became so strong that sometimes it creates a feeling of revenge....

There were times that i fought back with no mercy for those who used to treat me arrogantly last time, when i know i'm in power now.... that it created the pride so strong yet invisible on the outside...in me.....

There were many times i was being cut through, my heart.. so deep so deep that it bled non stop & it had turned my heart into stone, a mask on the face.... and it had me made over into a new person, more confident 10 times than before....

hey~ not now... not now lily~

i do not want to have all these now~ i no longer want all these...

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When i look back all these while....so much ups & downs... ahh just like a roller coaster........ I thank the Lord for what had happened & even the sufferings that i endured... because sufferings produce perseverance, mould me, shape me & turn me anew....

It is just so unfair for those who are unworthy to shine.... & that is GRACE that i have learned....

& i'm.. learning to change...take away this pride~

Thank YOU so so much....

For YOUR GRACE IS Always Sufficient~