when i was having my thoughts....

"u woke up early~ where r u going?"

"err..im goin out...to meet some friends.."

***(eversince that night u questioned me about the "issues", it started to affect me...i know that i could not answer u...because i just can't...im not even confident to give u an answer...i'm just sorry i dissapoint u..i've tried my very best..)***

Headed down the streets of KL, trying to clear my mind off. Whenever im frustrated, i'll just like to take a stroll outside~ Don't know why...i just chose KL~ maybe it's because im not familiar with the routes, & whenever im in a new environment, i'll be more alert & refreshed when im alone~

sometimes im weak, throw me into a new place & let me survive on my own, i'll come out whole anew~ & stronger perhaps, after going through sufferings & stand up again without relying on others.. Weird but it's true that whenever i have friends that i can depend on, i'll become less alert, dumber perhaps... sometimes i rather chose to be alone...

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Met a couple of backpackers in the train~ with the guy's face fully grown with moustache, the couples' unmanaged attires..looked kinda rugget though~ the couple reminds me of a chat i once had with my best friend, when we both were high on the topic of travelling. Saying that we will be backpackers 1day, going around the world, stopping by countries to work temporary & earn some bucks while dropping by hotels motels & sleep in lobbies for free...huh that was old time alright...how sad that this relationship is not complete...

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Saw an interesting blind pairs today..they were walking by the blind walkway with the help of their folding canes. Suddenly i have this curiousity on how they survived through this busy street in KL & followed them behind slowly.. Observed their every move from a distance~ I heard the blind lady that was clutching the guy's elbow said "macam mana"(how), d guy replied "jalan saje"(just walk) & he knew where to avoid certain corners & had great sense of direction to turn left or right. Then came to the escalator, the couple stop & the lady said "macam mana", the guys replied "pegang ni, jalan saje" (hold this, just walk) & the guy lead the girl through his elbow to touch the handle of the moving escalator. The lady was trying to balance herself on the moving stairs while the guy was steadily in position. However i've lost sight of the couples. Not long after, i saw that lady again but was alone at the end...i wonder where did the blind man go....

Though there were a few shoulder bumps when the surrounding people not aware of the blinds, i would say that the male has great sense of hearing, he has been trained for it, to listen to voicec, voices of the surrounding, the people, the busy streets... that lady seems like a rookie though, as if she has just become a blind lately & not used to the "new" condition she is in right now...

U know, i even wonder of tabbing along a blind, with my eyes blind folded & off the road with a stick.. & learn to listen like a blind, be alert like a blind. I~ want to have that sensitivity towards The Voice too...

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" Eli~ Eli? Are u calling me..?"
- 1Samuel 3:6-8