More Than Just A Taste

I personally like McDonald's sundae cone very much, its smooth & soft texture that warms your heart even though it's served cold. Whenever i felt tired i wanna have a break, or feeling dizzy/ listless, i would wanna grab a sundae cone for a refreshing time.

Ice Cream~ it's more than just a taste. It really makes a difference of whom you tasted the ice cream with~

It tastes different when you eat with people you felt uncomfortable with. Somehow the ice cream gives you temporary comforting when you eat it alone...or perhaps.. it tastes bitter instead... 

or you taste none at all...

but it's definitely warms your heart when you eat it with friends, laughing & sharing together~ 

Ice Cream~  it's more than just a taste~

Awakening...

I'm not sure if its a cut in the heart,but the sour feeling it's enough to make me awake... You had reminded me that what i have now.. comes from You. It is You The One who provided me~ You led me flash back how You The One who led me through... A guilt and shame in the heart when You reminded me to be Faithful~ Faithful in the things You want me to do... faithful in every little things that you entrusted to me...which i have neglected...

Awakening...

*A renewed covenant with the Lord*

of whom i want to be...

 -D-I-S-C-I-P-L-E-M-A-K-E-R-

                  

                   G. C.

Familiar

what leads you to ponder...

Boy Meets Girl

"Don't let impatience get the upper hand. Be her friend; but don't communicate your interest until you are ready to start a relationship that has a clear purpose & direction. You don't want to play with her heart." - Chapter One


"Set a clear course for a defined season of courtship helped us keep from rushing into involvement with our hearts & bodies before we had time to get to know each other's mind & character." - Chapter Two


by Joshua Harris.

- something that leads me to think from another perspective.

Passion, Purity, Respect, Self-Control, Honoring God

That Night…as if.. You Had Came

That Night…as if.. You Had Came

You form words through my mouth…

and it says

“YOU – ARE – LORD”

“YOU – LOVE – ME”

.....

Without saying Goodbye

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We have weakness, & we fell~

I just want to grow in the Lord, focus for His Kingdom...

A Journey without saying goodbye~

I don’t ask for much, but let it be a covenant that we will continue to walk in The Vision no matter what, no matter where we are… we'll not compromise, nor lose focus..

on the things that He wants us to focus on~

lead me to Paga

Paga - meeting with God... You led me to come back to stand in the gap once again~

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It was really a weird short distance journey~

When the streets were getting darker, Psalm 23 I walk through the dark valley was in my mind. The streets were rather quiet on a Sunday late evening when i walked through the terrace houses. It was a really weird moment, felt so deserted. Yet the main road was filled with passing cars, lights shone upon me~ I went through a playground, & i noticed one of the swing was swinging, & there was no one on it, no birds nor wind movement. I hesitated my foot steps to get a closer look, and then i was reminded of the earlier sharing of an angel that was delayed 21 days to answer Daniel's prayers because there was a spiritual warfare took place. I headed back to the hill instead to have a city night view of the land where i stay. Realizing that the surrounding was getting dark, i head back home. When i was having a quiet time, out from no where, came a fast running attacking dog which looked more like a ferocious beast coming towards me, i had a great leap of yell that shoe that beast away. So long my heart never pounded that fast, of a sudden fear of shock....

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When I made a decision to God today, & through the journey i just had, it leads me to come down on my knees once again, .... & PAGA~

Just Scribbling...

just felt that God is telling me something...

few days ago, yesterday, today....

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each time when i go to work, whenever i was given a task or to handle an issue, i'll pray that God gives me wisdom to handle.... not easy to face certain people who walked-in...

there were 2 ppl in my mind that i felt like meeting them up again... 1 of them bears the same name of my leader in BP. the pleasant smiles on the face when enter into the office...the smile on their face that says "hey, it's ok. im not here to make u difficult". Both of them told me on a different day, "I'm a Christian"...i paused awhile, i just felt i've finally met someone that i can call brother. & i just replied "God bless you"~~

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when i was on the street, there was a car pass by & the words on the back of the car made me stared at it for long... & it says "All Things Are Possible With God - Matt19:26"

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i went to the roof top.. & the city of KL~ it was really beautiful~ it was a dangerous place to hangout...but how i wish that i could came back again to see the city night life~ reminded me of the roof top in UTHM faculty where i used to go~ it was really a nice beautiful place, green pastures, the 'promised land' we used to proclaim together~ .....& i saw "Let's pray for Japan" written on a bottle cap on the floor where i stand~

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every single day, i am dealing with people, in touch with different people, passing by shoulder through different faces....

when i was walking through the crowds, as if like everything has been moving in slow pace, capturing each person's face, and there are monologues in my head...like a narrator of a movie, describing each scene, the people...

there are people with empty looks, troubled hearts, tiring face~

there are people hanging all around the bridge, walkways, staircase, smoking & taking a break & hard day off~

there are people stop u on your way telling you about their promotions, HSBC credit cards, perfume samples, buy & win cash schemes~

there are people staring u calling u from afar trying to flirt you into looking into their eyes~

weekdays are hectic days where everybody moves in fast pace, trying to chase after time...

weekends there would be so many couples in hands, families with children, the golden age group, youngsters & singles hanging around the shopping mall~

..... and i always ask God...Help me to Make A Difference in this place where i find it hard...

One's Selfishness

bet you din't notice the tears at the corner of my eyes...

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every single day, i've kept telling me.... be patient, guard my heart....

& almost each day i would tell myself, if i have money, if i have my own car, i would make sure i'll be blessings to others.... right now, i don't have much, i don't stand a position to say anything....but to just watch, & tell myself not to repeat after you...

constantly reminding myself...."set an example Lily"~
SET AN EXAMPLE

i'm hurt & disturbed by your selfishness

Human Touch~

when i was with you on ur 1st day work, u seem serious, cool & nervous. I know u came from a foreign country & u looked abit insecured in this new place. And i wanna earn ur trust. When i approach u to guide u, something that i could do, is through smile on my face that made ur heart calm. And as days past, i saw smiles on ur face when we bump into each other... even people see different status in us, but i never put level in friendship~

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when i see troubled face, and eyes of fear.....i just want to let u know that....everything is going to be okay~ everything is going to be fine... & i'm here to help~

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I like to play ur fingers, ur hand when im listening to u~

I like to have my legs crossed, and lie down on my tummy....while chatting with u...

I shared about my day, I shared about people, I talked about things that hope to encourage u & lead u away from distractions that bother u....

I like u to sit with me on bed, while i hug a pillow or lean my head on my palm with elbow supporting, and make u laugh~ just to see u smile...

I like to do simple massage on ur back to let u feel relax~
and lead u to sleep & have good rest.

& i would always prefer to end it with prayers to give u peace~ and belief


You are a lady that had influenced in my life.... and i wanna believe that God can do all things possible...include ur life

People comes and goes

They came..and they left.

People comes and goes. I’m talking about people who influenced ur life, whom u care for them, who stand a very important position in ur life, whom….is part of ur life… People walk into ur life, and they walk out from ur life… and they had just left... unreturned…

Four funerals in a row….the word “who’s next” ringing in my head… At times, I wonder if I’m too late to do something… When the 4^th one came, a sudden heartfelt pain in the heart, because I have already starting to feel the ache of losing someone…I don’t know who is going to die next… but I’m afraid of losing another one…another soul

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The wedding dinner….

When the songs & videos played on the screen, it was a beautiful touch, beautiful sight. Of course I have my own imaginations too, missing someone too…

Wedding celebration can be a glorious moment when God’s glory reviewed, testifying God through lives~ The sick healed, the brokens restored, the troubled ones be delivered! That can be a glorious day~

***Wedding dinner…a good time to find back long lost reunion with relatives. Perhaps there was already a gap when we have not met up for quite a long time…and I had lost opportunities to enjoy the time like we used to chat~

When I stand up bringing an excitement & smile on my face heading towards a table on the other side…..then again the unfamiliar look made me paused my footsteps. I hesitated… I left there hanging.. & I turned to walk back to my seat with regrets and burden. Few days before I was praying for him and what I saw today….i know my heart was troubled and I do not know how. Deep inside my heart, I just know I need to do something…

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People comes and goes…. The people whom still in my mind…. I know that I need to do something… but how Lord….Teach me…&Open doors… To Make A Difference~

I'm Glad....to be part of It

din know that i have little strength....

exhausted......dizzy...nauseous...suffocating....i nearly fainted...was calling upon Your Name repeatedly to sustain me.....You really tested me... n i thank You Lord...that u sustained me through~ yet.. i started to worry how am i going to last for long term...


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Deep inside me...i know that You have opened doors for me.... Teach me Lord...to Trust in Your leading...& walk in Your Will~ in this new journey... & You'll take care of the things i worry...


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when you mentioned about shepherd, & people are walking all over to their shepherds & pray & reconcile &... i slum down unto the seat....i can't stop but sob...i can't help it but to sob... & i just bury my face in with my palms & pray for a person at the other part of the country... & a sudden hand of comfort ran over my shoulder...... i realized my heart is still longing to go back, to my Home where i grew in Christ~


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This morning....i am so glad to have listen a story of a handicapped brother~

among all the people in the hall, my eyes just focused in this soul, & i just want to talk to him....coz i c something in his life.... Accident since 11 years old being tuck by a car & dragged through the road, leaving him on wheeled chair, & now he's grew up. I asked him what makes him accepted Christ, asked about what He desire to see, ........ i tried to catch what he's saying, in his slow mandarin language, trying to catch which direction he is looking..... & he shared to me Isaiah 42:1

“Here is my servant, whom I uphold,
my chosen one in whom I delight;
I will put my Spirit on him,
and he will bring justice to the nations."

& im reminded to be servant of God of whom He is delight with, & stand for the injustice. he gave me a gift, in which he use it to earn for living, & he insisted for me to have it...& i realize my little chat & prayer with him really means alot to him. & im very blessed & encouraged of how this brother persevere & live in his life, by moving only forward, fix his eyes on Jesus, not turning back.

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im ready to be mold, & equipped & being rised up to take up responsibilities here in KL~ & i want to learn to be armor bearers for my leaders here too!


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Praise You God!! I have the chance to shine for You!! Use me as Your Vessel Lord!! In my weakness, may your power be made perfect in Your Grace! Tq for giving chance to make a difference & shine for You!! Lord, you always encouraged me!

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You gave me back a clearer Purpose to live for, each day when i go to work, church gathering, & at home~ I can't wait for another next day to come!

I'm not like this...

These tears... they never ends..

can't it be stopped flowing...at least one day....


Learning to be an over comer~

HOME SWEET HOME

God gave us a Home.

It is no mansion, but it is COSY.
As long there is room for
LOVE,
and SHELTER for us,
that's all I care.



God is faithful

He took care of us

I Remember...

Once upon a time...

When we were naive & young... :p










Ambitious...



friendship I cherish...


















Place that I can call Home...













Passion for God...


MHS

Covenantal Relationship








Sweet Memories...
























Make A Difference...





sow in tears & reap with Joy!




The Covenant that WE hold on Together





TQ for leaving footprints into my life
in this land of
Batu Pahat

I will settle down in KL. Will update more about myself. If I don't...pls pray 4me~
Now it's best time to apply all things that i've learned in BP, in my Homeland.

Walking ahead with Faith.
Let's not forget the Covenant that we hold on together~
Blessed 2012, Moving with Holy Spirit, Be The Harvester!